－＝　爱比尔　＝－

喂笨蛋！你是怎么跌伤的？怎么敲到头部的？大家问我的时候，我都不知道怎么回答他们。我们又不是手携手一起滑雪，真奇怪！别人怎么跌都没事，就你，笨蛋啊！

嗯，今天有个女孩教我怎么丰胸呢。哈哈~试了再告诉你效果吧。

戒指拿到了。

我想我必须看医生了，身体有点不妥。

生前多么大的争执和矛盾，都在你离开后变得多么的渺小了。

嗯，因为你善良了，所以上帝要你呆在他身边享福。每个儿女都是上帝赐给父母的礼物，父母只是向上帝暂借儿女。这句话，我想，是基督教的，都明白吧。

我能体会到大家失去你的痛，因为你的离开，在我心里恨恨的划下了无法磨灭的伤痕。我的痛，是半年累积下来的，当然比不上二十二年的疼了。

真的像一场梦，现在想起，如果迷信的话，真是有太多太多的预兆了。首先是我不见了一边的手套，再是阿明业无端端不见了一边手套，另一个女的也不见了。但只有她找回。上山滑雪之前，我有那么强烈的感觉，告诉我不要上去。我自己没上，但你却上了。想了都气！梦醒了，你就不见了。

刚开始，我妈安慰我说，你只是去旅行没带手机。现在呢？真的是一场梦啊！！怎么可能你就这样消失了？很难置信…… 上个星期三早上，你躺在病床上，我却收到你手机寄来的简讯。我问朋友，他们都没收到，他们说你的电话没电，都放在宿舍。嗯，可能是你爸用你的sim card吧，我的名字又是第一个，所以不小心按到吧。但我却希望是你听到我说的话，我说你发生意外后，我检查我的手机简讯，都没有你曾经寄给我的简讯。你每次都是问我在哪之类的，所以我也没收下咯。

够了，一整个星期的时间了。每晚都一觉睡到天亮，什么梦也没有，只知道一整开眼睛，就是想到过去的画面，就跟梦一样。

passed by capitol square starbucks .. saw a new ads of "signature hot chocolate".. think of u again.. hot choc used to be the item that u order whenever we go to starbucks. hmm.. gonna try it soon..

对了，你爸抵达的那一晚，我看见了这辈子最难忘的天空！

那天，我、阿明、Vincent、Janice半夜去医院看你。因为通往医院的捷径晚上九点后就关门了，所以我们必须绕一大圈从大门进。路上，我们都看见让人毛骨悚然的天空。

天空尽然分开两半！一半是暗的；一半是亮的！我没看见月亮呢。

嗯，没什么了，只是突然想起而已。

搁笔咯～

看见一些关于冬天的争辩。嗯，也许大家对冬天都有不同的定义吧。对我而言，它是无比的冷酷，无比的无情。

今天的天气很怪，早上大太阳，下午尽然下起了阵雨。嗯，听朋友说，还有冰刨呢。更奇怪的是，下午的课，我是坐在靠墙的第二个位子，下雨时，我一直往窗外望，嗯，屋顶尽然漏雨了！正是对准我隔壁靠墙那没人坐的座位，正前方！漏水了！！可能也没什么吧，是我多想了。

苹果妹都会定时看我的部落格。他说得没错，要嘛就报个梦。每天晚上都等你入梦呢。还是你什么也不想说咯。阿明说可能你比较想念家乡的朋友吧，原谅你咯。我等！

今天和朋友谈天，哈，她正好问了个好问题，她问我当晚我说的话，你是否听见。我怎么知道啊？我只知道，如果你知道的话，你会笑我，呵呵～没关系啦，习惯就好嘛，哦？呵呵～我们明白就好。我想，那护士真难受，看到我和你讲话，想笑又不能笑，哈哈～嗯，我有捏你呢，呵呵～因为护士说你能感觉得到，所以就捏你，打你，可是你都没反应。

冬天，哎～我妈去灵堂拜访，但她也哭了。今天出殡时，我打给她，我妈说不好意思，因为她没办法出席，因为她会忍不住哭。还不如我呢，我已经三天没哭了，行吧？

看见大家都写起部落格勒，难道他们发现我们的联系方式？哈哈。你很忙咯？每天都要上网看看朋友给你的留言，呵呵～　我先说明哦，你得分配时间哦，好好分配时间哦，先看我的哦～

最近真忙，不过你放心，我还是有想你啦。明年回去，才去拜访你哦，薏已经答应我要带我去那儿。你爸说，Kelvin长得挺像你的，我好像看他噢～　苹果妹也说要去看你，你的朋友就是我的朋友，由我招待她吧～

回想当晚，你爸还没到的那一晚，自己也很大胆吧？一个人留在那儿，呵呵。因为是你，所以我一点都不怕。当时我只想和你说话，所以就留下了。我还放vivian鸽子呢，说好隔天早上和她一起搭火车，自己却和wei先去。没后悔！

哎，很累呢～　迟些我会寄卡给医院里曾经照顾你的护士们。现在啊，我都忘了自己在部落格里写了什么，我只觉得我有可能会重复地说。也许吧。

我们的缘分就到此呢，遗憾～

也许是那朵白云
天空才蓝得美丽
因为短暂
因为无意却难忘记
每次想起你
心还微微叹息
每一个遇见你的梦里
我总迫不及待拥抱你

因为你是我生命美丽插曲
寂寞啊变成了主题
在人来人往的时间海洋里
我常想你

是否我也是你生命的插曲
只可惜在你际遇里
回忆总太拥挤而我的爱情
好象那朵云

shit shit shit.. i broke my fav ring !! argh.. no worries, gonna replace it with a special one soon ^^

how r u today? i suppose to work till 5pm but boss needs me.. lolz.. juz kidding.. coz someone else cannot make it for the nite shift so i have to replace her.. i bought the indonesian food that u mentioned as my lunch.. n went to buy gelati icecream.. remember ur 1st trial? lolx.. i tried that.. choc chips n ..err i forgot the name but it should be the one that u ate.. hehe.. it’s delicious oh.. that’s my dinner.. hehe..

ee called me to tell me that u r back to kb already.. i already thanks vincent on ur behalf of making such a .. BLUR slides show.. forgib him k? as u said.. hmm.. lolx.. not gonna mention it here.. each of us know then it’s enuf edi..

another news of urs in sydney chinese newspaper today..

eh "ai qing mo fa si".. who was the one that make u bought the cd? me or apple? better tell me the truth (  -.-)

i’m so tired.. but i sudd think of u.. hmm… i should say i’ve been missing u for the whole day.. while working.. n now back to home.. eh i covered my ski trip cost edi.. left not much.. but cant treat u eat edi.. anyway i have to rest edi.. u take care k?

冬天原本是很美的，但今年后，我想我再也不会喜欢冬天了，因为你是在冬天离开的。心疼，就是心疼。唉~

白色的雪，一点都不美。它是那么的冷酷，那么的无情。冷飕飕的风，它只懂在黑夜里带来无尽的伤痛。

想你呢~但你都听不见。。。没关系，我们常说 “我们懂就好，不必告诉别人。”

好吧。现在离伤心因该有段距离了吧。眼睛哭得快睁不开了。

晚安。

http://www.smh.com.au/news/national/snowboard-death-prompts-plea-for-helmets/2006/08/12/1154803143006.html

Danny, the above URL is the news of u.. hmm.. look so entao in the pix worh.. yeah u r now on the way back to malaysia edi.. with ur daddy.. hmm.. this morning some friends n uncle went to fish market, st mary church, hyde park, darling harbour, paddy’s market.. hmm.. uncle was so tired.. we took some photo of uncle in oz..

Beng told us bout the funny story le.. u both bought new bicycle but den the police took it away coz u never wear helmet.. lolx.. juz bought that not long ago rite? beng said when u saw the police, u ran to the mall.. park the bicycle beside his bicycle, end up both bicycles took by the police.. gaga.. funny le.. u’re so cute =)

We bought few copies of today’s newspaper.. got it at starbucks for 50cents only after we bought a drink there.. never know we can get cheaper newspaper there.. hehe.. yeah i kept a copy of it already..

I have to work today so i cant send uncle to airport.. beng n janice sent uncle there.. after work me beng janice n vincent gathered for dinner.. went to Superbowl.. the food that u always order is so nice le.. gonna have it for my next visit to superbowl.. eh superbowl used to be the place u settle ur meal rite? hehe.. i have to check out the english name of the dish.. but i think u know which meal i m talking bout rite..

did u go my work place today? or were u along when i went to vincent’s house? i smell the hospital smell in the lift.. hmm..mayb i think too much.. lolx.. hey i am getting the ring tmr ^^

oh ya..my boss mafan nia.. should have change the job lorh.. pet pet de.. complain this n dat.. i also lazy tiuz him edi.. i should have get a better job hor? how great if i found a boss like urs.. this morning ur boss’s wife went to pick up beng janice n uncle.. never date but it was so co-incident.. yeah God arranged everything =)

aiyo i forgot what else wanna share with u edi.. i have to zz early today.. tmr have to work.. really pet pet hor.. eh many ppls said u look so entao le in the photo..dengz eh..finally ppls agreed with u.. but regretably that u cant hear the words.. but anway, u can see rite? tada~ everyone says u r handsome ^^

ohya i remember edi.. i know where is "yd" edi la.. i went there today.. the design is not bad le.. should have get one for myself but the brand is for guyz de.. lolx.. eh i bought a pair of high hill le.. ai sui =P

commission is 13bucks only.. =( i tot it should be more than that..

k la to be continued.. nitez =)

oh shyt.. i really dont know how to fully utilise the public transport.. i felt so tired caring ur bag n my lap top to take the train to ashfield.. i didnt know which platform to go.. ouch.. so so so tired.. since when ur bag is so heavy le? 3days 2 nites also need to bring to many things? lolx.. u’re laughing at me when i was mentioning what to bring for the trip.. eh i didnt bring all of the things that i’ve mentioned.. coz it’s not a one-week trip.. hehe..

1st time reached ashfield, 1st thing i saw is the easy way opposite the station.. me n others got a cab to ur house.. hmm.. is my 1st visit to the place.. peaceful place.. saw the fences infront of ur house.. the place where u took the latest photo with the latest hair style.. it takes around 10mins to walk to ur house.. cant imagine how can u walk alone esp when u go home in the middle of the nite.. ish .. so scary man.. it is so quiet along the street.. 10mins walk somemore.. mayb that’s the reason y u never grow fatter..

hmm.. beng bought the chicken that u said is delicious coz they went to flemington.. hmm.. i was so hungry coz i never have my lunch.. beng went upstairs to "take" ur housemates’ rice.. muahahhaa.. without permission =P revenge on ur behalf.. coz they always download movie n make the connection slower.. ops.. i’m sorry =P i did something bad.. it is delicious.. much more better than the BBQ king one.. hehe..

my boss’s wife called me le.. she wants me to work on sunday nite.. i said okay coz it’s not good to reject her for too many times.. sudd think of the time when jess decided to stop working at the bakery.. n her supervisor asked if i wanna work there.. den i asked u for ur opinion.. u said the wages is lower.. but i said got free bread.. muahahaha.. i think u really zar dou that time.. muahaha.. coz of the few breads den i wanna change job.. i know it’s funny.. hahaha..

beng cooked seaweed soup for ur daddy.. ur daddy said it’s delicious worh.. haha.. janice said u can eat white rice with seaweed only.. coz u like the smell even though there is no more soup.. oh ya.. we told ur daddy u r "fan tong".. haha.. ur daddy laughed.. jess came after her work, she bought us some fried rice.. den we asked uncle to eat.. uncle said he is not "fan tong" .. hahaha.. we all laughed lo..

oh ya, ur boss n ur boss’s wife came to visit u.. they were so sad that u left them oh.. everyone is sad.. but no cure.. juz promise everyone that u take care of urself k? have to rest earlier coz tmr going to church with everyone before uncle goes back to kb.. nite =)